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| 20 Jul 2008 03:28:45 am |
| What if never again? |
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During our lives - and especially now during emigration - we are all confronted with two sets of despiriting words: "what if?" (past) and "never again" (future). These evil words rob you not only of your precious time, but more so it robs you of your courage, your dignity, it will paralize you with fear. I do not, never have and never will lived by regrets, that spell at least I am free of. David Gemell once wrote that the past was the past, only the weakling tarry on it and regret it, the strong learn what there is to learn, shrugs his shoulders and move on. I love it and live by it.
The set of words implicating the future (never again) is a whole different matter to me, though and I wish to be free of that too but am not - yet. These words are every bit as paralizing as "what if". It robs you of your joy and prevents you from living in the moment. They sound like this: " Never again will I drive in this car again" - after selling the car. "Never again will I hear the children's laugter in this house." - after walking out of your house for the very last time, locking the doors and turning your back. "Never again will we braai at my dad" - after our last Sunday braai there. And so it goes on. I hate it and long to be free of it, but will I then be less human? |
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Category : Lourisa
| By : Lourisa |
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| 29 Jun 2008 11:07:21 am |
| Hello again |
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| Long time no speak......So much happen since I last posted my blog. We sold our house in about a months time amazing because the market is not existent. we moved to Estcourt KZN and start preperation for NZ. We didnt know a single soul in Estcourt the only contact we have with our friends and family is via email and telephone. Mike works long hours and it is colder here than in Gauteng. It is so beautiful with the Drakensburg in view from my kitchen. And the sea only an hour and a half away. I accidently stumble on a joboffer for mike and all looks well so we will be leaving soon. A word of advice from the engineer from NZ that came and interview Mike here in Estcourt is that I need to loose weight. I knew that from the start but I have been putting it off.......next week nothing........maybe next week, nothing and so 3 months went past already. Now my time is up and I have no more excuses. I went on a program for a week now and its going well, there is no turning back I dont want to be the reason that we cannot go to NZ so I be ready and thin before the medical. I promised myself that I will do this I wont let myself and my family down. We got a job offer in a place that I never thought we would go. On the westcoast an small place that is were are going to start our life in our new country. I'm still waiting for the kids surname to be changed so that I can get there Birth Certificate and passports. All of this is happening at a tremendous speed. My head is spinning and I cannot get my thoughts straight, I do not know what to do next I have reading of all the peoples experiences on the forum and my just reading and now I have actually have to start and do something....... I'll keep yopu updated |
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Category : Stella
| By : Stella1124 |
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| 10 May 2008 02:04:00 pm |
| Last letters (1) |
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We're nearing the end of our "visit" here in Africa, so this might be a good time to write some final letters. The first letter is to you, South-Africa.
Dear South-Africa,
We've been here over thirty years now, that's a pretty long stay for a visit. We need to go home now, but would like to thank you for your hospitality and for the lessons we learnt.
You taught us to be gratefull, now we can say "thank you" each night for we have survived another day.
You taught us to let go, it's not worth our lifes to go after those who stole from us. You therefore also taught us that earthly possessions mean nothing.
You taught us to be on the outlook the whole time, therefore we shall not be careless citizens in NZ.
You taught us to have respect for members of other cultures.
We were taught true fear and sorrow, now we can look forward to a time of true joy.
I feel no hate for you, but no love either. You are beautiful and we are glad that we had the oppertunity to get to know you, but we will never be truly whole here. We will take no hope from you, and give you all the hope we can spare, for we do wish you well, you are the home still of people we love.
Take care.
The second letter is just a short note to all you murderes, rapists, hi-jackers, thiefs and so on:
If you so much as touch a hair on the heads of those we love and leave behind, I will come back, hunt you down and gut you myself. |
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Category : Lourisa
| By : Lourisa |
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| 26 Mar 2008 09:56:00 pm |
| FINALLY ! ! ! |
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Finally everything has come to a point. Half of our payments have been made as deposits. The furniture has been sold, half the house contents have been boxed, taped, listed and labeled and the house has been sold. My mother-in-law bought the house as an investment for her sons - talk about a GREAT mother-in-law. How many women can say they love their mother-in-laws? At least I can say that.
Chris has only 3 working days left, I only have 4 - he doesn't work Saturdays (lovely). But April is laying ahead of me like Mount Everest on the coldest, snowiest day ever. This is it - everythings gotto be done and April is the only time we can do it. We are flying out of SA on 8 May 2008 and then it's off to start our new, safer life. I had so many questions, the main one being "Are we doing the right thing?", but now I know we are - crime is totally out of control. Niquitta is a "free-range" girl (wanting to run around a be a real carefree child), but because of SA crime, we watch her like hawks. I suppose we'll be laughed at in NZ when we start with our security measures. But I'm just glad that everything's come to an end and that we've got a great new life to look forward to. Our emigration consultant and her secretaries have been angels throughout this whole process and were always ready and willing to help answer questions, answer my dumb questions and too put my worries and mind at ease - or at least the mind I've still got left after this whole process.
But that's me for now. Now it's a question of work - but this work I'm doing with a big, silly grin of my face.
Cheers |
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Category : Tanya V
| By : Tanya V |
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| 11 Mar 2008 02:21:39 pm |
| the beginning |
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Well today we got some news of some of our documents. Mike's previous boss send the referal letter and the cover letter for EWRB is correct. tomorrow I must just phone and ask when will we recieve the english red seal from Dept of labour and then I can sent the docs through to Wellington. everything is taking time and I want all to be done at once, but I will be patient We will get to NZ when our time is right (I keep telling myself this)
My police pension paid out eventually and there is just enough for plane tickets and maybe the container. I'm pleased because all the strings that is keeping me in SA in starting to let go. 2morow I going to phone the Home affairs because I changed my children's surname to Mike's surname and they told me its going to take 6 months and only after that can I apply for the passport So I contact the head office and they cannot find my applications on the system So now I have to find my application and maybe the head office can help me getting the new birth certificates earlier. I hope so, because Mike said the first opportunity he get we are gone. So now I'm of to feed the children and after that I will be back browsing the forum |
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Category : Stella
| By : Stella1124 |
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